Missing You

"I miss you...to the point of death!"
-Hana Yori Dango's Gu Jun Pyo to Geum Jan Di

No matter how i try to forget you and totally erase you in my mind, your face and voice keep lingering on me.

I hate to say this but i really hate this feeling. I hate it because I always lose. I hate it because my brain can't win over my heart. I hate it because when it comes to this 'feeling' I'm a loser, and I think I'll always be.

Well, maybe this is what love is all about...LOSING. Perhaps, one day, i'll also win, and will totally forget my feelings for you. Perhaps....

How i wish we were Geum Jan Di and Gu Jun Pyo. We would've had a happy ending despite the challenges and hindrances. Both of us would've won. But then, we're not them. We're different persons, and we have a different story.




Well, if i'll summarize this write-up, isa lang naman ang gustong tumbukin nito, e.

One thing: I MISS YOU... (And just like Gu Jun Pyo) TO THE POINT OF DEATH!

Where are you Ma'am Cabanban?

Where in the world is Ma'am Cabanban?

Huhu...I don't like what's happening in my Humanities141 subject. During the first, second, third, fourth and fifth meetings in this class, it was Ma'am Cabanban who was teaching us.

Just this morning, Ma'am Cabanban did not show up. It was already 9:24 so my classmates started going out of our classroom. Supposedly, our class started at 8 o'clock in the morning. But Mich, my classmate in this subject, and I just stayed there because we were waiting for her friend who also have a class in the next room.

While we were waiting, Sir Elmido showed up and told us that he will be teaching the subject from now on for whatever reason. And I don't like him.

Well, it's not that i like Ma'am Cabanban. Forgive me, but she is sooo boring when teaching. You know what I did when I was having a class with her? I just counted the number of times that she uttered the word 'etcetera'. Sometimes, Mich and I were talking secretly because if we will not talk to each other, for sure, we would end up sleeping!

Anyway, the reason that I don't want Sir Elmido to handle this subject is because I was once under his class. The subject was Sociology. And would you believe it? He did not submit our grades at the Registrar's Office, not even at Dean's Office nor at the SocScie Department's Office. So, I was forced to retake the subject and pay 600 pesos in order for me to enroll.

That's the reason why I don't want him to teach Humanities. I want Ma'am Cabanban...

Hayz...but I don't think that Ma'am Cabanban will still be our teacher.huhu. Well, wherever she is right now, I just hope that she's fine.

Goodbye Cabanban! Hello Emido! Aaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrgggghhhhhh!!!!!!! Hate it!

What will I write?

Yah! What will I write? What exactly will I write?

Well, to tell you honestly...I DON"T KNOW. hehe. It's just that I want to make a new post for my blog. Anyway, I have to write more so that this post will be longer. hehe. But I am not in the mood of writing. So, i will just finish or post again later.

It's nice to hear from you

I don't know why i feel so alive whenever i read your mails. Whenever i read them, it's as if we are not just mailing each other. It seems as if i talk to you in person.

February 4, 2009 marked the day when we first gained communication after several years of not hearing from each other. Somehow, I felt the awkwardness in the first week of exchanging mails with you but as we continue to do so, the said feeling slowly vanished...and was replaced with excitement and happiness.

We are getting along well. And honestly, i don't know where this will bring us...I'm not expecting nor hoping anything though. I am happy as to where our relationship is right now.

I just hope that no matter what happens, we'd still be friends and I mean not just friends...but best of friends. Wherever you are right now, I just want you to know that I reserve a special place for you in my heart. I just hope that you are doing the same thing.

i miss my dating kakosas

i miss you guys....

That's the only thing that i feel right now. Ahh...i miss my friends...my friends who used to care for me...my friemds who always asked me "Kakaon ka na, Nadz?" whenever its lunch nor dinner time...my friends who always cared for me when i was always sick...my friends who used to lend me money in times of poorness.

I can still remember the times when we used to borrow money from each other in order for us to survive coz there were times when our allowances were delayed. I also remember when we went to our 'Kusina' (Fudnet) spending only Php20.00 per meal. Haha! T'was really funny coz most people would think of it as a place where class people would eat and would not expect that one can already eat there having Php20.00 only in there pockets (may libre pa nga sabaw!hehe).

Ah, well...that was only three months ago. But i don't feel sad coz i still have a lot of friends left here and i don't feel that i totally lost them coz somehow i know that whenever i need them (and vice versa) they're just a text away.

Perhaps, in their busy lives, they also feel the same.

i'm back, i'm sooo back!

It’s been over five months now since I last created a post in this account. I promised myself not to write anything unless the summer vacation is over. And now that summer’s over, here comes my first post for this school year…haha! So guys, be ready coz from now on, I promise to be active on this site!

Uh-huh. You’ve read it write. I will be active on this site no matter what(Hehe). Well, unlike before when i wasn't that active(FYI, i just made this account because we were obliged to make one for the student pub), i will try my best to publish posts from time to time from now on.

So good luck to me!weehh...

a bestfriend in love

Lucky

Do you hear me,
I'm talking to you
Across the water across the deep blue ocean
Under the open sky oh my, baby I'm trying
Boy I hear you in my dreams
I feel your whisper across the sea
I keep you with me in my heart
You make it easier when life gets hard

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Oooohhhhoohhhhohhooohhooohhooohoooh

They don't know how long it takes
Waiting for a love like this
Every time we say goodbye
I wish we had one more kiss
I'll wait for you I promise you, I will

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
I'm lucky we're in love in every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

And so I'm sailing through the sea
To an island where we'll meet
You'll hear the music, feel the air
I'll put a flower in your hair
Though the breezes through trees
Move so pretty you're all I see
As the world keeps spinning round
You hold me right here right now

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
I'm lucky we're in love in every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

Ooohh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh
Ooooh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh

Hayzzz… this song… it reminds me of someone whom I have been secretly loving for almost five years now, my best friend.

Years have passed and yet his memories remain in my heart. I don’t know why. You see, he’s the only person I have ever loved (aside from my family and friends of course!) and I doubt if I can ever erase him in my heart and replace him. How I wish I could do that. How I wish that replacing him would be as easy as erasing writings on a black board. How I wish….

But it’s not as easy as that. Forgetting him, nor replacing, has become a struggle for me. A lot of times, I forced myself to forget him and totally erase him in my mind…but I always fail!

Until now, he’s still the one….

And until now, he still doesn’t know how I feel towards him….

I don’t have any plans of telling him either. What for? I survived without telling him before. How much more now that he’s leaving for states...?